Sunday 2/7/23 "Once have I spoken, twice have you heard" is the dilemma that I see myself in as I look at my previous journalling prompts. God had taken me in my walk with him and told me things. Things that I couldn't understand until it was knocked right into my head. There are a lot of instances of bible verses, of write ups that I made that had answers already set out for them. I had seen them, but I did not understand. I had felt weak and tired, and I let all of these things pass over my head. Looking at my journal today made me realize that answers had already been given, but I was too ignorant to hear. Romans 8:23 had been given in the early month of May to answer my question on choosing the right path for my life. I read it over and over again trying to strengthen my spirit to trust God, but it's not a 'by myself' thing... He works it out. The following month, June, I went to a church where that word, where those answers kept ringing out. W
5:30am_ 3/7/23 How time flies... It's funny how around this time I was the teens president in Church (Yes, even this quiet girl has a role to play). It's so intriguing how this month was for me, my turning point. I was the President after all, and being a leader meant that there were responsibilities on your shoulders. It was around this time of the year where the teenagers had their teens week and for me, it was absolute chaos. One of our teenage teachers had left church and she was basically the mother hen and support system for our church... My very own positive momentum, and she had left. For a while things had been disoriented but God sure had plans and right about that moment, we had a new teacher who had just as more energy as our previous one and way more strict too (in a loving way). I believe everything that happens, even the bad things, happens for a reason. All of these moments, now that I recount them had built me in some way. I no longer had someone w