25/02/23. 2:00am
It's the early hours of this election period and I can barely sleep at an hour like this mostly because I slept earlier today and had been watching an animation series.
Earlier yesterday, I had severe stomach cramps that had me rolling on the ground like I had been possessed. You would actually think so if you saw me.
A few hours or so (I don't know for how long I was in that state), I eventually passed out and was able to fall asleep. One could say that at that moment, I was breathing hysterically.
Anyways, I'm glad that I'm over such a situation.
Recently, I've been thinking a lot about my future and how I'd move ahead in my life. I've been thinking of my purpose and what/who I'm impacting in this world.
Over the passed few months, that has been my thought and after the bible school programme, I wanted to start from somewhere.
Before I could go any further, I just had to ask myself, "Who really am I? What is holding me back? How do I move ahead?"
These questions have been floating in my mind subconsciously.
In the course of this month, a lot has happened in my family and as an individual. Things that have made me want to push forward and also stay back in my spot.
I got to finally realize that I had an anxiety problem which was stemmed from a fear of uncertainty (most likely not know what the future holds... I talked about this somewhere in my blog).
I officially got more books that talk on life and watched this anime series that also in itself taught me valuable lessons.
I'm looking forward to successfully handling this anxiety issue and growing to be a better part of myself.
One thing is certain... In your 20's your life officially begins and whatever decisions you make at this stage of your life affects your future. This in itself is a major reason for me to be afraid or anxious about my future.
But here's another truth...
You can't handle a future you don't know, you can only handle the present that you see and know. So take a step at a time, when you feel down relax and learn to enjoy the moments around you, and get back on track when ready.
There's so much you can handle alone. Have the right people with you on your journey.
Sincerely, I'm still praying for my right set of people and to not loose them because of my attitude. They help you a lot in more ways than one.
Most of all remember,
God loves you😌
Tee.
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