I learnt something about myself yesterday...
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My name is Treasure, and I love to journal and write. Well, this is my own world because I share my own 'little' thoughts here. I consider myself a quiet and self-aware person. On this blog, I document every growing and limiting moment of my life.
I do hope that this blog inspires someone.
Welp, let's dive in!
I realized something about myself yesterday.
I'm quite the achiever - maybe not an overachiever, but I want to do great things and do it well. My phone is my biggest distraction, especially when I use it for the wrong reasons, social media is cool but it can be both my breaking point and rising point (if I need an adrenaline rush, that is).
Yesterday, while looking through old messages from my dear friend, I felt a huge sense of how unrealistic I had been. The more I thought of the situation, the more I saw how and why I felt the need to please others so much... The answer was simple, but very much deep - I wanted people to see my value.
I wanted to be seen as the person that everyone needed. I wanted to be valuable to others (coming from someone who's name literally means value) but sadly, that isn't the case for everyone. Many may see my value, but others will not.
At that point, I realized that I do the same thing to others...
Some may see something or someone else as very important to them, but I would think otherwise and that's totally fine. I can't force someone to like what I like and I sure as heaven won't be forced to like something that I don't see as valuable (of course, unless I pity you and that in itself is a waste).
I love stocks, and I believe that it's one way to grow out of poverty and build financial independence but others may not see it like that. I, for one, like to think about which business would grow and invest in it and that's cool for me but some may not like it. I just like the strategizing and thinking factor. It annoys me when the stocks go down, but it an interesting part of the journey.
I like to think long term, and so I'd rather invest for the long haul than the present times and that's fine. Many may not be like that, but that's just me. I believe that I have so much more to learn and grow in.
After realizing that others may not value what I value, and that includes me, I asked myself one very simple but deep question, "Do I see the value in myself?"
Do I really see my worth? It's one thing if others can't see it, but the moment I am blind to my own worth and constantly need others to show me my own value, I would always remain at their mercy. I don't mean being narcissistic and feeling proud, but being bold enough to see who you are and humble enough to see that everyone else is equally as valuable but not just to you at that time.
I figured, as the question stayed in my mind a little longer, that I just haven't noticed how good I am at some things. I may not be the best at it, but there are people who have little or no knowledge of what I do and it's both humbling and inspiring.
It makes me want to learn more, so that I can teach and impact more lives.
It makes me want to raise awareness across various topics, and that's just my pov. I can help others know more, just by being a well of knowledge.
I realized that the more I thought about this question, the more I didn't know much about myself and I just wanted to condition myself to fit into other people's preferences. Of course, I realized this after so many chronic moments and being in a dark place. One which I wouldn't have gone out of if not by the help of God.
I'm still discovering more about myself and learning to see my value... I've only just begun, but while I'm on this journey, I'll ask you, "Do you see the value in yourself?"
Sincerely,
TKT❤
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