Funny how I barely left the house, but it's been a very short week.
The experiences of this week has led me to believe that we're the ones who really distance ourselves from God.
I guess that's how it's been, even in the times of old.
Exams start on Monday and it will shock you to know that I've barely read my books and with the tension in school, my brain has been hopping from place to place🙃.
My Dad had told me to read anyway, but it's not been easy.
I was supposed to update the blog yesterday, but I was tired and had slept off with my phone in my hand😅 (a very bad habit by the way).
In the course of this week, I'd felt that my praying life had become more strained.
Yep, Treasure wasn't giving off her doses as usual, and it's safe to say that I was bothered.
I still am, but a part of me has eased out.
Wanting to do everything all at once has always been a problem for me, and it leaves me feeling lost, confused, and at my wit's end.
Wanting to surpass my present state so quickly, wanting to not be looked down on, wanting to get to the top, and basically rushing myself.
I tend to forget that I've only just begun, and that I still have a long way to go.
Pressure...
Unwanted, unnecessary pressure built not by others, but by myself (the environment being a major factor I guess).
And in all that confusion, here's the highlight of the week.
I had some visitors over yesterday and let me tell you, a lot of questions are answered in the place of fellowship. In a gathering of people with like minds.
I got a chance to ask a question that has been bothering me, and I got my answer.
Read Romans 9...
I'll tell you the answer I got though, "God knows the hearts of men, and he sees our innermost thoughts and so, he chooses his people from that point.
It's not by looks, or by how smart you are. it's all about the heart, and that's why we see people who weren't even born again being used tremendously by God."
I even got an answer that I didn't really know was bothering me until I received the word.
"Young man (woman), it's wonderful to be young! Enjoy every minute of it. Do everything you want to do; take it all in.
But remember that you must give an account to God for everything you do.
So banish grief and pain, but remember that youth, with a whole life before it, still faces the threat of meaninglessness." ~ Eccl 11:9-10.
Well, I need to learn to enjoy my growth process and live a little, as long as it pleases the Father.
At the end of the day, it's him I give account to, and so do you😊
God loves you😌
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